2nd

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It took me 2 years to come back home to the land down under. I had solid plans of returning here as early as possible but then life happened. I was left with no choice but to deal and heal. Time allowed me to be whole again.

Now on my 2nd week back, everything is slowly falling into place. I am welcomed with the warmth of 2nd chances by my school and workplace.

I came back just in time for spring season to see the wonderful bloom of the Jacaranda trees. It is in perfect timing as the hope of 2nd try springs within me.

I now understand that I did not wait in vain, every delay has a purpose. I am much prepared to be successful. I will soon build my empire. Wait for it! *blink*

Thank you to my family for their undying love and faith in me. You are the true champions!

Thank you to my friends who were always one viber away. Thanks for never leaving my side even if I was being difficult at times.

Thank you to the love of my life. Being with you makes me want to be better in all sense of my being.

For all those who are experiencing delays in their lives, don’t get defeated. It is never a failure to wait, it is just a success in waiting.

xoxo,

The Flying Mermaid

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Throwback Thursday: dengue

First posted on August 11, 2010.

2009 – I didn’t get sick even a fever at all. Come 2010 – spent a week in a hospital.

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Ilan days na din ako nilalagnat and I thought na lagnat lang talaga yun. Nagpa-CBC with platelet count ako at lumabas na mababa ang platelet ko. Positive Dengue nga. We opted for confinement for hydration lang. Sayang. Pwede na sana yun sa bahay. Pero iba din talaga yung may medical assistance. Thanks to Our Lady of Mercy General Hospital in Pulilan, Bulacan and to my attending physician Dra. Eliza Valenzuela.

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One night hindi namonitor ng nurse ko yung IVF level ko kaya nadrain, ang tendency magclot yung dugo ko dun sa abbocath. Pag nagcloth kailangan ireinsert. Huhuhuhu! Sa kabilang kamay sinubukan pero wala. Cephallic vein subok ulit pero wala. Huhuhuhu. Hanggang sa yung Resident on Duty ang nagreinsert. Nagtataka ako bakit sa artery niya ininsert instead na sa vein. Anyways, alam nya naman ang ginagawa niya at gumaling naman ako. So, good.

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Thank you sa lahat ng concerned citizens na nagtext at dumalaw. Ready na akong magpakagat ulit sa lamok. hahahaha!

The Flying MermaidDon’t worry I was really fine. I was just goofing around so I put on some powder on my lips to look pale. Crazy eh?

xoxo,

The Flying Mermaid

 

Throwback Thursday: atomic patty

First posted in April 4, 2011.

According to my site stats, most of the topics searched on my blog is about Atom Araullo and Patty Laurel. There was a time I even thought of putting up a fan site for them. But now that they have broken up, the hopes of developing such website is no longer possible.

Well this post isn’t about me.

This is what Patty Laurel wrote on her temporary site regarding her on the process of renovation blog and the break up with Atom:

To my dear blog friends,

I’ve received many warm messages from all of you regarding my blog. For personal reasons, I’ve decided to keep my posts unavailable for now. I hope you will be patient with me..Im currently developing a new blog site with the help of my best friend Alessa Libongco-Lanot (who will be designing it for me!! Yipeeee!). I’ll have it up and running again soon..with lots of silly kwentos 🙂 Looking forward to killing more of your braincells with my useless posts 🙂 I will see you all soon in blogville! In the meantime, babalitaan ko kayong lahat sa twitter!

On behalf of Atom, I would like to thank everyone for being so concerned about the status of our relationship. Atom and I will always be good friends, nothing will ever change that. We decided to part ways a long time ago but chose to keep things private at first, so we apologize for not telling you sooner. It was a mutual decision made with much respect and care for one another. It may be hard to believe and I’m sure a lot of you are waiting for a nasty breakup story for me to tell, but the truth is..it was a very clean and positive breakup. Contrary to all the rumors, we were very kind and faithful to one another during our entire 4 years. I have nothing but admiration and respect for Atom…and I’d like to believe he feels that way for me too. Please be happy for us, as we are truly happy for one another now..and the new and exciting things we both will face as individuals. 🙂

I hope through this letter you will all find it in your hearts to stop making up stories or fueling rumors about us. Atom and I are just regular people who are just trying to move on with our lives..so we ask for your understanding at this time 🙂

I pray that you will continue to support us. Please continue to support Atom, hands down one of the best reporters..in the world! Oh yeah! And I hope patuloy din yung suporta niyo sa kin…Patty Laurel..one of the best…ummmm, I dont know yet..basta THE BEST ako! hahaha 🙂

Maraming Salamat!

God bless you all. 🙂

Patty

PS This is just a temporary address 🙂 I will have my new blog address soon! Thank you for all your sweet messages! Im touched guys

http://dapattylaurel.blogspot.com

Throwback Thursday: the guy who broke my heart

Originally written on April 11, 2006.

 

For whatever reason, I do not want to mention his name. That is why I am masking him as ‘DIET’. I am posting Yuuki Kadooka’s picture because the kid looks much like him. I could see the resemblance.

DIET is a year older than I am, we attended the same school at some point in our lives. We may not regard ourselves as “friends” but “just schoolmates”. I know for a fact that he was aware of my mere existence alone, nothing more, nothing less. While on the other hand, he was the only guy who caught my attention at that time. He was the only one I kept day dreaming and fantasizing of. He was the only man I ever wished of being with.

DIET is a good looking guy. Witted, talented, intelligent, wise, responsible, charismatic, sweet, gentle and caring. He plays almost all sorts of sports, be it ball or mind sports. A gifted musician as well. He has that one special smile that just simply sweeps me off my feet. A mature man he really is. He has that certain depth that you can hardly see on any other guy at this time. DIET is the type who will fight for you, no matter what. With all those things, he’s just so… PERFECT! You could not ask for more. At a very young age, I found what I have been looking for.

But I know that I am just a nobody compared to the ever popular DIET. He hardly noticed me. He seldom throwed his attention on me. I didn’t even know if he has ever seen me. Sometime in our lives, I learned that he was sort of courting the MUSE of our class. Hurt I was but faced it as a soldier does. I even remember teasing the two of them on one Valentine’s Day when DIET was giving her some chocolates. Not a single tear fell off my eyes at that scenario but I could still remember the pain it brought. The truth that he may never like me because of the presence of MUSE. It felt like a dagger slowly being pushed on to my flesh. Ouch! I didn’t even bother to ask what happened to that courting thing for MUSE was my friend and I knew that she liked DIET too.

Two long years have passed, I thought I could forget about him but I never did. That is why I did something. Something I never thought I could do. Then suddenly, he drew attention on me. Attention that I have been dreaming of for the past four years of my life then. Suddenly, he made me feel very special; unique in some sense. Then he raised a question that I have been longing for: “pwede ba kitang maging girlfriend?”. Hearing that, I was happy, gratified, felicitous, afraid, shocked, confused, muddled, befuddled, addled, flustered, kinikilig and all that. Knowing myself, I knew I blushed too (I can’t imagine how red I was… ;p). Thoughts passed so quickly on my head. I imagined things, what might happen and stuffs. My pulse beated 240 times per minute (well, ok! thats an exaggeration. hehe.) I had the feeling of one nervous lunatic folk. The immigration of butterflies in my stomach surprisingly doubled! I even felt a tight – loose bowel movement thingy. I could not believe I could contain such mixed emotions, I haven’t felt that way again eversince.

I even asked him whether he was serious or not for I still have a very fragile, innocent, young heart that time and I do not want anyone to break it into pieces. Few minutes, I waited for my body to return into its homeostatic condition while thinking about the proposition of the only guy i ever dreamed of. “DIET is giving his ‘love’ for me now”, I thought, “it’s just like a dream come true”. I have been wanting to say yes to that for a long, long time. Pinch me, is it really happening? I finally said, “oo, mula ngayon girlfriend mo na ako.” He thank me for saying yes and mentioned that he ‘loves’ me. Without any hesitation, I told him that I love him too. I love him more than he thought I do. True.

We both decided to enter a long distance relationship and were willing to face its unpredictable circumstances. This went on for a week, I was really happy. I even told my best friend and some close friends about it. I kept on recieving daily messages from him. I could feel his ‘love’ for me. Everytime my phone beeps, I am excited to see that he remembered me again. We also had small conversations over the phone. Love for him still growing.

As few more weeks passed, I knew he got tired of our daily “good morning-good afternoon-good night-musta-kumain ka na ba-mis u-love u” routine. He may have fell out of love from me. Maybe, he got bored with a girlfriend like me. I got this strong feeling that he does not love me anymore. I am becoming less and less important to him. He was starting to get cold and I know that anytime soon I might find our relationship ended. Women’s insticts as they say, I was right.

After a very short span of time of being together, Of two months and three days in the realationship, he broke up with me. I can’t help myself but cry. He gave me both the highest and lowest point of my life. It was really hard for me to let go of something I innocently thought would bloom into something special.

I am a college freshman now, delicate no more, courageous perhaps but still loving the same person who gave the scar onto my then young heart. I had some chat with DIET even after the relationship. He told me how was he doing and I did too. He also mentioned the girl that he is presently courting and asked for my opinion. Ask me! well man, that really hurts, if I may say so, that feeling sucks and I sure am not happy with that. It was like boiling myself in my own oil, self-torture in other words.

Now that I am eighteen, I think it’s about time to give up on him. To cease myself from believing that we could still get together sometime. I know somehow that I became special to him. He may not have ‘truly’ loved me but he taught me how to love selflessly. I know it’s bound to happen. I gotta be contented with being just an ex girlfriend. Also a friend, a true one.

I fell in love. I got hurt. I stumbled. I rise. Good thing, I learned my lessons and I’m ready to love again.

Let this entry be my farewell to you DIET. Minahal kita, sana alam mo yan. Pinasaya mo ako, salamat.

PAALAM. GOODBYE. SAYONARA. CIAO. ALOHA. BABAY. FAREWELL. SO LONG. AVISALA

xoxo,

The Flying Mermaid

moving on

When I said that I am starting a new chapter of my life, I meant every single word of it. I wanted so because it is so difficult to live in the past and let the same things hurt you over and over again. Well, very few people knew what really happened and I think it is best to keep it that way. I am just writing this post to share what I felt before I end up with the decision to move forward.

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When I found out about the ‘thing’, I was devastated. My world was really crashing right in front of me and there was nothing I could have done to stop it at that time. I felt the pain that I never knew existed. I was so angry and I said things I probably meant but didn’t want to verbalize. Do you know how it feels to give your 100% trust then have someone tear it into tiny irreversible pieces? It was the hardest thing in the world. I felt like I was so stupid for being naive and trusting someone I shouldn’t have. I now know that I wasn’t.

 I wanted the people involved to suffer. I wanted them to feel double the pain that I was feeling that time. But then I saw them happy and moving on without a single drop of regret for what they have done to me. It was unfair, I thought. It hurts so much for people you trusted to betray you but it hurts the worst when you find out that they felt no remorse and that given the chance they would do the same thing over again to hurt you. Revenge was my only friend. I now know that it wasn’t.

There was no use of me dwelling into the wrongdoings they have done to me. I decided that I would be the bigger person here and seek for the forgiveness in my heart. But get this right, it was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. Every single detail that could remind me of the ‘thing’ gets me upset. Every time that I am not preoccupied, all I could think of was the all the betrayal that I got while I was striving to work abroad. It hurts a hell lot. I literally cried a river over this thing but then I realized that I am only hurting myself by doing so. I now know I shouldn’t do that to myself.

It is true that once trust is shattered it is very difficult to put it back together again. I am still afraid that this hideous ‘thing’ might happen again but I now leave it all up to fate. I honestly felt like giving one last chance is possible, It may still work, or even if it doesn’t I could proudly say to myself that I did not give up so quickly. It is now up to those people involved if they will do that again to me, as for me I am moving forward with the beautiful life that I have ahead of me.

For those who are now broken, remember this: You have the right to be damaged but don’t stay that way. Sometimes you have to see what you have so long built get destroyed so that you would know what you are really made of. It will give you the ability to build yourself all over again, but this time you will surely be stronger than ever.

Take it from me, I have been there.

yours truly,

bigger, better, stronger The Flying Mermaid

the flying mermaid is here..

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So yeah. I am finally back to blogging. It has been a year since I put so much time and effort into this, and I am so happy to have been given a chance to do this again.

I wanted to start a new blog just in time as I start a new chapter of my never boring life and love for fashion, food, and travel.

I have tons of experiences to share and I couldn’t wish for anything but more time to keep doing this.

So for now, just wait and be amazed by yours truly, the flying mermaid.

 

xoxo,

The Flying Mermaid